As promised by muah... =)

They aren't the best in the world, but you get the point right...
Some better pictures showing the new hairstyle and color..

xoxox!

Til death do us part

Dear Michael,

Today is your birthday, December 16, 2008, you are 28 years old. Still so young but age is definitely creeping up on us. I want to wish you a Happy Happy Birthday my love. I wish nothing but happiness for you throughout the many years I hope we may spend together. I know we do not always see eye to eye, and sometimes may ask our self what we were thinking by taking on a lifelong commitment, but I do know that at the end of every day when we lye in bed gazing into one another eyes, we remember why we are in love, and why we put up with each others craziness. I love you Mr. Bell, with all of my heart. I am honored to be apart of this special day, and look forward to the many years of happiness.

I love you always and forever..

Your heart,

Brittany

Ecclesiastes 9:9
Live joyfully with the wife whom you love all the days of your vain life which He has given you under the sun, all your days of vanity; for that is your portion in life, and in the labor which you perform under the sun.

Somewhere in the middle,, You'll find me... =)

Hey guys.. I hope everyone has had a great week. As you can see I have changed my blog title. It's part of my skin shedding process.. Out with the out me, and in with the new. I found my self trapped in the definition of infertility, so I am letting that go and will continue to blog as always about what's is on my heart. And as of now, my heart is focused on being Christ for filled and a woman of god. Please stay with me through this journey and your comments and suggestions are very welcomed. God Bless..

I pray this song touches everyone who hears it the way it has touched me. Another footprint imprinted into my heart.


"Somewhere In The Middle"

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle

Sharing my prayer with you

James 1:19 says, Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
Take that in..
Ask God to touch your heart and let this words and verses take effect on your heart.
Repeat that verse a few times before moving on, really read it slow and take in every word of it.

LET EVERY MAN BE SWIFT TO HEAR, SLOW TO SPEAK, and SLOW TO WRATH.

God is saying be swift to hear,, MEANING: fast, rapid, quick, speedy to hear what is being said.

What does that really mean? How can it affect us in life? When our husband’s or co workers, or parents say something we do not want to hear, something that isn’t to our liking, or even criticism, instead of getting angry and saying something back we as CHRISTIAN'S should listen to what they say. We should take it in, and think about every word they say with out reacting.

Next, he say’s be Slow to speak. Which doesn’t mean making a smart comment back to someone, or arguing your side of the story, it means you have been swift to hear what that person say’s, you have thought about their statements, you have prayed about their statement, and NOW you are ready to speak.

Lastly, he say’s be slow to wrath. What does wrath mean you may ask? It means anger, rage, or fury. The Lord himself has said to be SLOW (unhurried, leisurely) to anger. He is saying do not react to someone’s comment, if it offends you do not get angry and argue or call names. You are to be slow to anger.

I believe that if we take time to listen to what someone is saying, instead of jumping to conclusions which we are all guilty of, a lot of argument’s or hasty feelings will not surface. We should look to our bible, our HOLY BIBLE, the ALIVE word of God, to see us through life’s trails. It’s our own living version of life for dummies.. **Wink**

To finish, another verse that has been imprinted into my heart this week is Psalms 119 Verse 165

“Great peace have they which love thy law: and NOTHING shall offend them.”

I place emphasis on the word NOTHING, as you will see later.

Let’s break this verse down…

Great peace- Great comfort, great harmony, great calm.

Have they which love thy law- thy commandment, thy rule, thy decree.

And NOTHING- the Lord said NOTHING, which means not anything, not anybody, and not any other.

Shall Offend them- Offend what does that truly mean, insult, upset, affront you.

So the Lord has clearly spoken and said, Great peace, Great comfort, have they which love thy law, they who love his commandment, his rules, his guidelines to life, and nothing he said, NOTHING under no circumstances shall offend or insult them.

We as Christian’s should not allow anyone to cause or deposit hate into our heart. Nothing anyone say’s will offend me according to the Lord, I will take mean words like a grain of salt, and it will mean NOTHING to me.

The word nothing is so powerful. It’s not black and white, it’s no where in the middle. It is what it is, NOTHING shall offend them.

Thank you Lord for blessing me with the understanding of your word today, I am covered with sin, and I have a sinful nature that I am trying to break free of, and with your scripture it has taught me to be quiet and listen. You patience is overwhelming my spirit. It is you Lord I long to be with, thank you for making me whole, Thank you for showing me the way, and most of all Thank you for loving me, You don’t have to, but you do. With every step I take and ever breath I breath you are there guiding me along the way. Your presence is what keeps me whole.

Amen

Back to normal!

Well, it's been a few days since I have been able to post, so let's pick up where I left off. On Dec 2, which was a Tuesday, I stayed the night with my aunt Kathy and Danae. We had a pretty good time we decorated all 3 of my aunts trees, and then watched some TV before going to bed. Then Wednesday night my mom and aunt Kathy came over for dinner and we watch a movie, and then my mom stayed the night with me... That takes us to Thursday, the day before my husbands return... =) After debating back and forth I decided to stay the night with my Dad in Macclenny. After all he begged me to come out, so I packed my stuff after double checking with Michael and him assuring me they would not be home until 1 or 2 Friday afternoon. My dad picked me up and off I went. When I woke up Friday morning before the sun was even up, I seen a missed call on my cell phone with a message to follow. I heard hey baby, I am home we decided to drive Thur the night, I am going to sleep so don't call me back and I will see you tonight.. WHAT!! Not fair,, I was supposed to greet him at the door with a big hug and kiss, or so I thought. So I went to work, leaving early for a Dr appt. When I got home he was still sleeping, so I tip toed around the house just waiting to hear his feet hit the floor.. After standing staring at the door I decided to watch some TV, and then it was the sound I was waiting for,, I HEARD hey baby!! It was like falling in love all over again.. I felt like a school girl with her new found sweet heart. My heart was racing, I blushed, ahh it was him... So we went and laid in the bed, just cuddling. Then we decided to go hunting in the back in the new tree stand Michael and Jeremy built a while back. Its massive with 2 leather office chairs in it,, talk about hunting in style lol. It was such a great afternoon just spending time together. I think I may of convinced Michael that hunting with me has MUCH great benefits, lol.. If you catch my drift... So then Saturday the stubborn man had to work,, so I went to town with momma to do some Christmas shopping. We had plans to go to the light parade in Macclenny but by the time I got back from town it was just to late. =( Oh well, next year.. Sunday we got up and went to church,, then to the pig for lunch, then spent the rest of the day doing some cleaning around the house and outside.. Just busy work,, now it's Tuesday December the 9th,, and let me tell you,, it's soooo great having my husband back.. They are already talking about next year,, Yeah ok... Lol.. never again.. I hope everyone is have a great week,, the holidays are here and things are already getting busier and busier.. It is definitely beginning to look a lot like Christmas..

B

PS: I have some pics from this past week,, I will post them tonight.. =)

Off to Mommys is where I went....

So last night, haha.. I am such a baby! I was soo set on staying alone, so I ordered pizza cuddled up and watched one of my favorite shows, PRIVILEGED. Around 10 I decided to lay in bed and try to sleep, the room was dark, quiet and it just wasnt happening.. I tossed and turned, so I jumped up, grabbed my backpack, packed some things and off to Mommy's I went! It was much more cozy, and the best of all I wasnt alone.. I woke up to some yummy yummy blue berry pancakes... Ooh la la,, they were great!! I went to the Dr yesterday, I have Laryngitis and major ear infections,, luckily I am out of the contagious stage, so I can mingle with friends.. =)

Have a great week guys..

(something for me to remember, in a email from my brother to my mom, 12/2/08: "Well just so you know, your son and daughter love each other very much. Brittany's honestly my best friend.")

This is my brother and Josiah wearing our cold clothes on Thanksgiving.



I miss you Josh!!!

Sick and Alone

So yesterday was definitely horrible... Not only was I sick ALL day long, I was alone while sick.. The worst, lol... I missed Michael more than ever last night, but he called me around 3 to talk, and to let me know just how much he was missing me, so I caught myself in tears once again. I am soo ready for him to be back,, and it's only Monday,, I have the rest of the week.. lol.. Anywho.. I am going to try and stay the night by myself again tonight,, but may not make it.. See,, I was sick last night and took some NyQuil to help me sleep, and yeah, I was having all kinds of hallucinations and crazy crazy dreams,, =).. So we will see how things go..

Love yall!!