Please please read this blog... I ask that wherever you may be to fall to your knees and pray to God for baby Stellan.. If you are at home go to prayer now, if you are at work take a bathroom break, we all must pray for this baby. This sweet baby needs our prayers more than anything right now, and you would want the same from friends if it was your baby boy in the spotlight of sickness. Pray for God to heal this baby boy, for God to bring peace to his scared mother, and father, to comfort them in this time of need, and mostly for his will to be done, whatever it may be. JUST PRAY is all I ask...
I have made one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make. We all have things we desire and want. What do you do when you have to choose between the 2? As you all know I want a baby more than anything in this world, but I am to the point to where the Dr said do you want a baby now, or do you want to stop trying for a while, go back on the birth control and work on getting your body healthy and making a lifestyle change. Part of me says no, I want the baby now, knowing that I can possibly be pregnant in the next 3 weeks if I wanted makes me want to leap with joy, to jump up and down, to scream, to cry, but then there's the logical side of me that says, Brittany, you are young, loose weight now, while you can, it will only be harder after a child. So what do you do? I wish I could do both, but once I become pregnant I know that loosing weight isn't a option. So I have made the hardest decision by going back on the pill... The thought of the pill, freaks me out, but the Dr said that at any time I decide, I'M READY, I can quit taking it and within days start the fertility medication, so that is some what of a relief. For now the only agenda on my calender is involving healthy eating, working out, and mostly preparing my body for a safe and healthy pregnancy. So no kiddos from me for the next several months. My plan is to stick to weight watchers and then reassess myself in July. I would love to loose about 50lbs then quit the birth control, but we will see. Nothing is set in stone, and ultimately it's in God's hands. Please still be praying for me, this is something that is hard for me to do, when I have spent the last year trying to become pregnant to stop it now and focus on my health seems like the right choice, but how do I know for sure? I guess it just seems like the smartest choice to me! I guess for now, Brittany is "under construction."
I also want to wish the best of luck for The Higginbotham's, they will be welcoming their little cowboy Tucker tomorrow. Please keep them in your prayers for a safe and painless (thought i would throw that in there for ya Jen..) birthing.
Last Monday was a pretty rough day for me, I was feeling the baby blues, but thanks to all of your encouraging words, I made it through another week...
Thank you to each and every single one of you who sent me encouraging words and prayers.
This Monday started off quite slow, and to be honest I didn't want to get out of bed. Do you ever have those morning where you would give anything to sleep just another 5 minutes. My first alarm went off at 6:10, now keep in mind my alarm is on my cellphone, so I got up, turned it off and brought my phone back to bed, knowing my next alarm would go off at 6:40, so I would sleep another 30 minutes. It felt like as soon as I layed back down and closed my eyes the next alarm went off, this went on for another hour until I heard Michael say, BRITTANY, its 7:40, why did you let me sleep that late. Ha ha,, I would of done anything to just stay in the bed for the rest of the day! What amazes me, is I had absolutely NOTHING to do Saturday morning and my plans were to sleep in, no work, why not catch up on some sleep, well it never fails when I have nothing to do, my body wont let me sleep I was up, bright and early, ready to go at 7 am.. Of course.. lol.
Although, I must say the day is carrying forward pretty fast, its already lunch time, and soon it will be quitting time. I am excited tonight, Jaime and I are going to the gym for the first time.. This should be interesting, haha!! I will be sure to update you.
Plans changes Saturday, the AM session was cancelled and instead of going to the Monster Jam with Christina and Amy I ended up going with Michael and his family. We had AMAZING SEATS, right up front, and I have a ton of great pics I was able to take.. I will post a few of them tonight hopefully!
Sunday was a all day session, We started in Fernandina with my good friend Mallory and her sweet baby girl and husband, she is expecting her 2nd child very soon. Then we headed to the park to photograph another sweet little girl. I will have some of their pictures posted soon for you to see. I must say they were all much braver than I was, it was FREEZING cold with the winds whipping at hurricane strength, or alteast thats what it felt like to me!!