Saturday, November 29, 2008
6 more days until I am reunited with my heart... So last night was okay, different but ok.. Carries company definitely helped me get through the night... I spoke with Michael a few minutes this morning and they were not quite there yet,, could you imagine, 24 hours strait of driving, no sleep, only stopping for bathroom breaks and food.. What determination a man has when it comes to hunting. I was lazy this morning, laying around with Dixie while carrie caught up on her beauty sleep. Then I went to my moms and we decorated her christmas tree, then she came to my house with me and we decorated my tree.. It's so perfect,, I love it... I wasnt going to do a tree but with Michael being gone, I wanted to take the extra time and put one together. I am so glad I did though.. Then we watched sisterhood of the traveling pants number 2,, a tradition of ours.. I am still sick, and starting to feel worse and worse as the hours go by!! Nite nite!!
7 more days!! =(
Friday, November 28, 2008
HAPPY THANKSGIVING GUYS!!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I'm out, have a great weekend guys!!
Caring and Compassionate,
Reminder of the day,, APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE, BECAUSE BELIEVE IT OR NOT, YOU WILL MISS IT WHEN IT'S GONE,, Right Jen ;)
Oldies, but they are always the best right?
I miss those days!!
Friday, November 21, 2008
Have a good day everyone!! =)
Happy and Loved,
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Tuesday November 18, 2008
After work, I went by Winn Dixie to gather a few items, so I could then go home and prepare a spectacular dinner for Dean and Jaime. I wanted to be a good friend, and try to ease a little more stress off of Jaime's shoulders. I just knew that if I was going in to have a child, i would probably not feel like cooking dinner the night before. I made a few of Jaime and Dean's favorites, our meal consisted of homemade chicken and dumplings, chicken and rice, mac and cheese, cheese cake topped with delicious cherries. Man was is good.. After dinner, I painted Jaime's nails, so her hands would look perfect in pictures with little man, and then was sat around and relaxed while watching some TV. Just passing time with good friends.
Wednesday November 19, 2008
Beep, Beep, Beep, is what I woke up to at 3:15 this morning, it was time to get up.. As much as my body didn't agree with that theory I still sluggishly jumped out of bed and hit the shower. What a cold awakening, =). After I got out of the shower Jaime called to check and see if I was up, and assured me once again, that today was the day.. (she has been on the countdown) I got ready, and we headed out, arriving @ st. Vincents hospital at 5 am, we headed to the 4Th floor. When Jaime, Dean and I arrived they made me aware that I would have to wait in the waiting room until further notified, what a bummer. So that is where is sat for the next 55 minutes until Candy and her grandmother arrived. After we sat their patiently with grumbling bellies, we decide to go grab a bite from the hospital cafe. When we got back to the waiting room Mr. Townsend (Jaime's Daddy) was walking out from seeing the happy couple. She had her iv's and everything done and they were taking her back to the operating room. So it was about 7:05 and every single minute until 8:09 when I seen Dean coming went as slow as they possibly could. Every time I would hear a door open, or the voice of a man, I would jump up, camera in hand saying there he is. I just couldn't wait, for once the anticipation was getting to me. So around 8, I just couldn't take it anymore, so i hopped up and ran to the door that dean would be exiting with Baby Zane in hand, and peeked through small cracks of the paper covered window hoping to catch a glance of what I had been waiting the last 9 months for. No Dean, no Zane is all I seen, but I kept looking, and then as my eyes swelled with tears I seen him. I started jumping up and down letting everyone know he was coming, I was so excited I could hardly stand it. I had the biggest rush of over whelming joy come over me, I was sooo extremely happy for my friend. Everything she wanted, was finally here. Jaime has been blessed with a wonderful husband, but the past year hadn't been so great. Everyone needs a pick me up, and I truly believe holding that baby boy was hers. So, we all followed Dean to the nursery to watch Baby Z be checked. They checked all 10 of his little fingers, all 10 of his little toes, and went over every aspect of his adorable little body to make sure everything was just how it was supposed to be.
After standing there and taking a million and one pictures of Mr. Zane it was time for Daddy to take his new found love to meet Mommy. We were told once again to wait in the waiting room, but i just wanted to see Jaime.. So after about 15 long minutes I heard the golden ticket over the intercom, The bare family can now come in, Yay,, I was soo happy, so of course me being the emotional person I am, started crying again, and ran down the hallway as fast as i could to get to her.
When I walked in the room, my joy overwhelmed me once again, and i walked to her bed to give her a hug,, it was the sweetest thing i had seen in a long long time, A beautiful mother holding her precious little boy. The look on her face was so sweet, and she was glowing. We all visited with Jaime and Dean, and as everyone left, Dean went to take Baby Bare back to the nursery to visit with the pediatrician for all of his shots and what not. I helped Jaime get into her new room and we spent the rest of the day realizing and spending time together, it was just Me, Jamie, Dean and little man. I held baby Z for about 45 minutes while he caught up on some of his interrupted snoozing time. It was such a great day, and a memory that will last a lifetime. I will never forget that sweet little cry of his I heard for the first time. There is no sweeter sound than the sound of a new born babies cry.
He arrived to this world at 7:41 AM on November the 19, 2008 weighing 8 lbs and 1 oz measuring 20 1/2 inches long with an adorable bald hear bearing a slight amount of reddish blond peach fuzz... =)
I wish the Bare Family the best of luck, and hope to be involved in a million more of little Zane's days on this earth. Thank your for letting me be there with y'all and share that special day with you...
I love y'all..
Aunt Britt Britt =)
Video,, Compliments of the great Aunt Candy!! =)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
If you have never heard the story of Joshua and the Walls of Jericho, be sure to read it, Its in the Book of Joshua, Chapter 15 and 16... Just google, Joshua and the walls of Jericho and you can read all about it... It was a great story of no matter how crazy it may sound God's way is the right way.
After Church Dean got the great Idea of going wake boarding in the freezing cold water.. So here are some pics of that.. =)
Tomorrow is the day for Mr. Zane.. I know i keep mentioning this, but i am overly excited.. =)
So,,, Saturday after working all day long =(, Michael and I went out with friends for Dean and Jaime's last night out before Baby Zane's arrival. It was so great to be with the old gang, and catch up on what's been going on in every ones life. When you get older, it gets harder and harder to spend time with friends, but boy did we have a great time. I think the funniest part of the night was when Buster bought the cook a shot, and the cook looked at him and said ahh you are trying to take me home, and whacked the grill with his metal spatula repeatedly yelling WHOS YOUR DADDY, WHOS YOUR DADDY, it was definitely one of those you would of had to been there moments, but I laughed harder than I have laughed in a long time. I experience 2 new things that night, sushi and Saki, which might add were both HORRIBLE!
Only a few more days until Mr. Zane Bare will be here,, yay!
Friday, November 14, 2008
So,, Last night when I got off work, I went to the sitter to pick little miss dixie up... She is such a sweet sweet baby. Me and her went home and laid on the couch,, just cuddling. You wouldn't imagine that an 8 month old would be soo much fun, but boy are they... She laid on her tummy on my chest for an hour while we waited patiently for her mommy to arrive... I enjoyed every minute I got to spend with her. I cant wait til she's able to speak and tell me what's on her mind.. =)
I love me some dixie cheyenne..
In life you are lucky if you find that one person to call a true best friend. I indeed am very LUCKY. I was born with a brother, which I adore, he's not just the average everyday brother, he is my Best Friend. The word best friend means more than the definition for it (Best Friend, someone (singular or plural) with whom one shares the strongest possible kind of friendship.) It means having someone you can pour your heart out to, not matter how long it takes and they listen to every single word of it. It's knowing that if you ever needed something, no matter how far away they were, it would be done. It's knowing that you are appreciated, and very special to them.
Word's cannot express how thankful I am to have such a special person in my life. You are the most inspiring, Strong willed, young man I have ever known. You have yet to experience all the many great things in life, and I hope and pray that along every step of your journey you always remember the special bond me and you have with each other. I will always be here for you, no matter what. You know that all you have to do is pick up your phone and I will stop what I am doing to tend to you, because nothing Josh, is more important than you. Thank your for every sweet word you have every said to me which brought a smile to my face, or a tear to my eye.. I will never forget all of of many memories, a few to be mentioned, All Time Low, Josh that was such an amazing night with you, I will always hold on to and cherish that night, for the rest of my life.. The Golden Girls,, =),, Thank you for tolerating every lame episode you had to endure to make me happy.. I will never forget when we were younger, probably around 2ND grade, you had done all of your valentine cards, and made everybody one, except me. I remember going into my bedroom and crying and you walked by, and seen the look on my face, and disappeared for over an hour. As it was time for me to get in bed, you came in my room and knocked on the door saying Sissy, in the sweetest little voice, You began speaking stating how sorry you was my feelings had been hurt, and you had a surprise for me, You Josh, had spent an hour on the cutest homemade valentines day card, which I would give anything to still have. I also remember one year for my birthday you wrote a letter stating the 10 things you love about me... Josh, it's all those little memories and moments we have shared that make us the adults we are today. Please never loose sight of who you are and what got you to the point you are at in life. You are strong and can do anything you put your mind to, and is music is your dream and desire, I know you will make it. Keep pushing and most of all, put your faith in God and he will lead you and for fill all the desires of your heart.
I love you Joshua James Card, from the bottom to the top of my heart. =)
Love always and for eternity- Your sissy!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
Dr. I was completely devastated.. So once again, I am trying to be positive, next solution to my big problem, how much is self pay, (my thinking it can't be too terribly much)... **sarcastic face** For the 900 Vial of Follistim I need, it will run me around $700, for the 2 week kit of Luprolide I am looking at $75, then we have the Novarel at $125, and last but not least the HCG Injection at $85. So for one cycle, it will cost me $985, and it may or may not work... Some people conceive the first time and others don't. So its a hit or miss deal, and I am trying to decide is this something I really want to try. Of course when insurance was covering it, that was a totally different story, but now, right here at Christmas, in order to try and for fill my desire of being a mother, I am going to have to pay that large amount to try and get a shot a being a mommy... So this is where I am at in my life.. All I can do is pray and hope for the best. It's really beginning to take a toll on my life here lately, and the worst is having no one to talk to, who understands what I am going through. I am so tired of hearing if its what god wants it will happen, when you stop trying is when it happens, when you least expect it, just don't worry about it, unless you have been to this point, felt what I feel, and hurt the way I am hurting, you don't really know. Everyone that surrounds me is living my dream, it seems like when you are trying everyone is getting pregnant, but like i said my goal and my desire is to be positive, and thankful for what i do have.. Just the other night, sitting there with my hand on Jaime's tummy, and feeling that ball of life moving around was super amazing and heart felt for me.. It brings me hope that maybe just one day, I will experience that. I am super happy for all my preggers friends... All i am saying is don't complain about all of the not so enjoyable happenings, enjoy and rejoice in the fact that you are able to feel that flutter, or experience that head bunt, lol,, because sooner than later you are going to be looking into the eyes of that beautiful child and think, man, it was really all worth it... Good luck to all and congrats are in order next week for the welcoming of Mr. Zane Bare.. Yay!! I can't wait..
PS: Thank you for taking the time to read my heart...