Monday, December 29, 2008

Please forgive me!

So, I know that I have yet to blog about all the wonderful things that have been going on, but trust me,, I have them saved in my head and as soon as a find the time to sit down and catch up I will share all of the wonderful christmas happenings with you guys.. Right now though I am in the mountains with my love and my grandparents just arrived and we are soon off to dinner so I am lacking attention and time. Just want to let my blog readers know I havent forgot about you. I hope all is well and cant wait to tell you everything about my christmas..

Still praising his name, I love you Jesus...

luv B.

Enjoying our Rest & Relaxation

Happy Monday.. Firstly, we are having a great time. The weather is very nice, not to hot nor to cold. When I first walked into the house on Saturday I was amazed by it's beauty. It has the cutest little road that creeps up the driveway and then there it is, pure perfection. I have yet to have the chance to visit the mountain house since my grandparents bought it, and I can tell you it was not what I expected, at all. It is so beautiful, I will post pictures soon. When we got in and settled Saturday we went to town to get groceries and to get some dinner. The town was just to die for, small and big at the same time, surrounded by this beautiful lake, but the night air had taken away the sun, so i couldnt see all of it beauty. We went back to the house to relax and enjoy each other. We got up Sunday wondering what to do, now since we had never visited Hiawassee we knew where NOTHING was. We knew Helen, Ga was close by since we passed through it on the journey up so we decided to back track and go there since Michael had never been. I went when I was younger with my Aunt and Uncle. We had a great time in the little town. Like most tourists we visited random stores and shopped.. We did get a old timey picture take which is hilarious. :) Heres to the rest of the week spent makeing memories..

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Off to Grandma's we go!

So, we are on the way to the mountains right now, although you will probably not hear from me much over the next week I will be drafting some blogs and posting them once I have time and get back. We are about half way there and I just cant wait. My Meemaw and Papahoney are the proud owners of a 3 story house on a mountain in Hiawassee, Georgia. It's a great location with lots of fun and exciting things to do. We will be arriving around 7ish, so here comes the fun... I am looking so forward to having some time ALONE. I better enjoy it now while we can, before kids come along, hehe..

Hope everyone is doing alright.. Leave me some luv!!

Out and About,

Friday, December 26, 2008

Thrifty Shoppers

So today is the day after the Lord's Birthday, and as if we are not all broke enough after the Holiday's some of us crazy ones get out and go shopping to get the great deals. Well I plan on this every year, I love going to Walmart the day after Christmas. That's the only place we go but I have been known to visit every Wally World in Northeast Florida, lol. Man, I got some great deal, I saved over $500. I was amazed. All of my Christmas items are all nice and tidy now, ready to be used in 2009. =] Not to mention I got all new dishes for my Kitchen, went home and cleaned every kitchen cabinet out and reorganized. I am headed to the Mountains tomorrow morning.. Woohoo.. See ya later..

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Happy Birthday Jesus

This morning I woke up, wishing I could still sleep, but it was time to head to Mommy's house. I must admit it still gets to me sometimes that I cant wake up to the smell of Mommy's breakfast and hear Good Morning Baby Girl. I sure do miss those days of ripping open the presents and spending the rest of the day being lazy with my bubba admiring our new toys until it was time to head to Meemaw's house. As Michael and I finally made it out of bed, I grabbed up all the presents and off we went. When we got to moms we ate breakfast,, Amazing Breakfast Pizza, Let me tell you its awesome, yummy, and easy to make. Then it was time to open presents. As always we took turns and admired the things we got each other. This year was special to me because I had got everyone in my family, well the girls, aprons with their names embroider on the front with matching initial pot holders. I wanted to give them something personalized and that's what I came up with! It was so exciting seeing the looks on everyones faces when they opened their special gifts. I reveived a awesome gift from my brother, it was a cd called Childbirth in the glory. It's about what the bible says on conception and childbirth. I can't wait to get started with it and see what all it has to say to my heart. He's so thoughtful. I am so lucky and blessed to have the husband and family I do. This was a wonderful christmas, and one of my best presents is going to the Mountains for a week with Michael. I am sooo excited.. Heres to reconnecting and falling in love many more times.. I love my man..

Happy Birthday Jesus, Thank you for everything you have done to save me. Thank you for caring because I am not deserving of your love. Thank you sweet Jesus....

Saturday I am off to the mountains.. I will miss yall!!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

A limo, Are you kidding me?

So tonight was the night I asked my Uncle R and Aunt K to take me to see Christmas lights since Michael's not a big fan of riding around for no reason. Well to my suprise my Aunt Kathy had planned for a limo to pick us up at her house, not just regular limo, a WHITE DODGE CHARGE LIMO,, just like my car, haha!! Luckily Michael decided to join in on the fun and we had a blast. It was My aunt and unlce, Michael and I, Danielle and Myles, Danae and Justin.. Off we went to see all of the pretty light Fernandina had to offer. I had never been in a limo before and just couldn't get over all the pretty lights inside the car. We went to the island to the Ritz Carlton who had a huge life size gingerbread house in the shape of a ship.. It was soo cool.. I have pictures I will post soon.. It was most def. a memorable night. I am so lucky to have a Aunt and Uncle like them.. I love you guys!!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

To Mommy, From God.. Merry Christmas Linds..

This past week I had the opportunity to take pictures of Lindsay and Brooke's little ones. I am so honored to be able to give Lindsay something she will be able to share with friends and families for years to come. Her are a few of my favorites.. I hope you like them... As always, let me know what you think..

Merry Christmas!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Christmas with Daddy

So today my Christmas was officially started. I stayed the night with my Dad last night, so we could wake up this morning to open presents. It was the first time in ages that I slept in the same bed with my brother, I know some of you are thinking eww, nasty, but it reminded me of when we were growing up. We would always end up in each others bed. That's the best thing about having a brother, you have a built in best friend. =] When we woke up we all went to breakfast, yummy.. Then it was back to the house to exchange gifts. It was a fun time and very relaxing. I wasn't feeling to well but for the most part it was a great day..

Oh Holy Night

Spending time with Uncle Randy and Aunt Kathy has always been one of my favorite pass times. Tonight after attending the sweet Christmas special at church we decided to ride to Avondale to see all of the pretty luminaries. You would not believe how much fun it was and exciting to see all the the people on horses, bells ringing, carolers walking down the street, it was just breathtaking, it was as if we were in our own hallmark Christmas movie. I had so much fun just listening to the kids laughing and the ho ho ho's as Santa made his rounds. There was even this one house with 3 young people, probably in their teens singing in the yard, with a sound system and all. Talk about angelic sounding, their voices were breathtaking, chills ran up my spine.. O holy night! The stars are brightly shining, It is the night of our dear Saviour's birth. One of my favorite songs. Next year I want have a group of people go with a trailer and ride through like the other people was doing.. With hot coca and christmas music blaring.. How much fun would that be?? Merry Christmas guys..

Friday, December 19, 2008

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Do we have 70 hours to spare for God??

So the past few weeks I have been completely consumed by the word of God. It's as if when I read the bible now it all makes sense. As a child I used to think how does Jesus expect for you to understand this confusion, but as an Adult I realize my words were careless and his word is immense and very reassuring. The more and more I look towards the bible for comfort, I find answers to my many questions. God really is the all mighty one. He has prepared this book, a novel that explains every single adversity we will face a humans and how to handle them. He has written a book entailing of all the countless experiences we will go through, it’s just mind boggling to me. Did you know that the bible can be read aloud in about 70 hours; a book that many Christians will never read from start to finish can be completely read in that amount of time, some spend a lifetime trying to accomplish this. I am going to start reading my bible tonight, starting on page 1, and just working my way from beginning to end. My goal is to finish it by July 2009. The bible contains 1,189 chapters, 31,101 verses, and 783,127 words. How fortunate are we to have that much knowledge left as a guide to life as we live it on this earth? My prayer today is that all of you rely and trust in Jesus as your savior, clinging to his word as your life standard.

I would like to share with you a bible verse, pertaining to prayer. If we pray for things, that we desire, and pray for them in an unselfish way, GOD will answer our prayers. You may not understand or comprehend his ways but they are always the right way no matter what. He is an all knowing God and truly knows what is best for us. It looks like my blog is turning into Brittany’s Daily Bible Verse Lesson, but it is what it is. I just blog about what I experience and feel, and God is always on my heart and mind. I just hope the verses I stumble across and share can comfort you as much as it does me.

Mark 11:24

Therefore I say unto you, what things so ever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.


merry CHRISTmas

Filling my HEART with the word of GOD

So the past few weeks I have been completely consumed by the word of God. It's as if when I read the bible now it all makes sense. As a child I used to think how does Jesus expect you to understand this mess, but as a Adult I realize my words were wasteful and his word is immaculate and comforting. Isn't it amazing how you comprehend things the older you get. Things that used to be crazy all is starting to make sense.

I'm amazed.

Talk about complicated

So last night was a tad bit challenging for me. Firstly, taking picture of a premature baby in it's self is a hard task to complete. He was so small that most poses you could do with a new born could not be done with him, not to mention he gets so cold from being so small that you have to keep him bundled up which makes it even harder. Secondly, add a 3 month old wiggle worm into the chaos. My good friend Lindsay has a handsome little man Maddox and her sister has a little boy named Brodee. Needless to say we decided to get some Christmas pics of the boys together and separate, but only ended up with separate. They weren't having it together. Brodee was quite tired so he was in the fighting falling asleep mode which made it almost impossible to get him still long enough to place him next to Maddox's fragile little body. Therefore it was much easier to do pictures separate of them. So I started with Maddox. Now keep in mind all of the cute ideas I had were out the window when I truly understood how small and fragile he is. I know I didn't get as many GREAT pics as I wished to capture but I hope they will make Lindsay and Brooke happy. Let me know what you guys think. Enjoy...

Much L<3VE,


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Michael's Hunting Adventure

Sorry I am just now getting around to this.. As you know Michael went to Kansas and Oklahoma over Thanksgiving to hunt. He was gone a little over a week and had such a great time he wants to go back already, despite the 24 hour truck ride it took to get there. I can't even get the man to drive 45 minutes to the mall much less 24 hours, ha ha... What a man will do to get the big one.. Needless to say Michael's hunting adventure didn't turn out the best in the world.. He didn't get the big one he had hoped for.. But he was able to bring home a smaller buck and a doe.. Oh well.. Next time... Here are some pics for your viewing..

Have a good day..


PS: I didn't realize I left this out, the big deer with Michael, he didn't kill that a friend did..

As promised by muah... =)

They aren't the best in the world, but you get the point right...
Some better pictures showing the new hairstyle and color..


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Til death do us part

Dear Michael,

Today is your birthday, December 16, 2008, you are 28 years old. Still so young but age is definitely creeping up on us. I want to wish you a Happy Happy Birthday my love. I wish nothing but happiness for you throughout the many years I hope we may spend together. I know we do not always see eye to eye, and sometimes may ask our self what we were thinking by taking on a lifelong commitment, but I do know that at the end of every day when we lye in bed gazing into one another eyes, we remember why we are in love, and why we put up with each others craziness. I love you Mr. Bell, with all of my heart. I am honored to be apart of this special day, and look forward to the many years of happiness.

I love you always and forever..

Your heart,


Ecclesiastes 9:9
Live joyfully with the wife whom you love all the days of your vain life which He has given you under the sun, all your days of vanity; for that is your portion in life, and in the labor which you perform under the sun.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Somewhere in the middle,, You'll find me... =)

Hey guys.. I hope everyone has had a great week. As you can see I have changed my blog title. It's part of my skin shedding process.. Out with the out me, and in with the new. I found my self trapped in the definition of infertility, so I am letting that go and will continue to blog as always about what's is on my heart. And as of now, my heart is focused on being Christ for filled and a woman of god. Please stay with me through this journey and your comments and suggestions are very welcomed. God Bless..

I pray this song touches everyone who hears it the way it has touched me. Another footprint imprinted into my heart.

"Somewhere In The Middle"

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Sharing my prayer with you

James 1:19 says, Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
Take that in..
Ask God to touch your heart and let this words and verses take effect on your heart.
Repeat that verse a few times before moving on, really read it slow and take in every word of it.


God is saying be swift to hear,, MEANING: fast, rapid, quick, speedy to hear what is being said.

What does that really mean? How can it affect us in life? When our husband’s or co workers, or parents say something we do not want to hear, something that isn’t to our liking, or even criticism, instead of getting angry and saying something back we as CHRISTIAN'S should listen to what they say. We should take it in, and think about every word they say with out reacting.

Next, he say’s be Slow to speak. Which doesn’t mean making a smart comment back to someone, or arguing your side of the story, it means you have been swift to hear what that person say’s, you have thought about their statements, you have prayed about their statement, and NOW you are ready to speak.

Lastly, he say’s be slow to wrath. What does wrath mean you may ask? It means anger, rage, or fury. The Lord himself has said to be SLOW (unhurried, leisurely) to anger. He is saying do not react to someone’s comment, if it offends you do not get angry and argue or call names. You are to be slow to anger.

I believe that if we take time to listen to what someone is saying, instead of jumping to conclusions which we are all guilty of, a lot of argument’s or hasty feelings will not surface. We should look to our bible, our HOLY BIBLE, the ALIVE word of God, to see us through life’s trails. It’s our own living version of life for dummies.. **Wink**

To finish, another verse that has been imprinted into my heart this week is Psalms 119 Verse 165

“Great peace have they which love thy law: and NOTHING shall offend them.”

I place emphasis on the word NOTHING, as you will see later.

Let’s break this verse down…

Great peace- Great comfort, great harmony, great calm.

Have they which love thy law- thy commandment, thy rule, thy decree.

And NOTHING- the Lord said NOTHING, which means not anything, not anybody, and not any other.

Shall Offend them- Offend what does that truly mean, insult, upset, affront you.

So the Lord has clearly spoken and said, Great peace, Great comfort, have they which love thy law, they who love his commandment, his rules, his guidelines to life, and nothing he said, NOTHING under no circumstances shall offend or insult them.

We as Christian’s should not allow anyone to cause or deposit hate into our heart. Nothing anyone say’s will offend me according to the Lord, I will take mean words like a grain of salt, and it will mean NOTHING to me.

The word nothing is so powerful. It’s not black and white, it’s no where in the middle. It is what it is, NOTHING shall offend them.

Thank you Lord for blessing me with the understanding of your word today, I am covered with sin, and I have a sinful nature that I am trying to break free of, and with your scripture it has taught me to be quiet and listen. You patience is overwhelming my spirit. It is you Lord I long to be with, thank you for making me whole, Thank you for showing me the way, and most of all Thank you for loving me, You don’t have to, but you do. With every step I take and ever breath I breath you are there guiding me along the way. Your presence is what keeps me whole.


Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Back to normal!

Well, it's been a few days since I have been able to post, so let's pick up where I left off. On Dec 2, which was a Tuesday, I stayed the night with my aunt Kathy and Danae. We had a pretty good time we decorated all 3 of my aunts trees, and then watched some TV before going to bed. Then Wednesday night my mom and aunt Kathy came over for dinner and we watch a movie, and then my mom stayed the night with me... That takes us to Thursday, the day before my husbands return... =) After debating back and forth I decided to stay the night with my Dad in Macclenny. After all he begged me to come out, so I packed my stuff after double checking with Michael and him assuring me they would not be home until 1 or 2 Friday afternoon. My dad picked me up and off I went. When I woke up Friday morning before the sun was even up, I seen a missed call on my cell phone with a message to follow. I heard hey baby, I am home we decided to drive Thur the night, I am going to sleep so don't call me back and I will see you tonight.. WHAT!! Not fair,, I was supposed to greet him at the door with a big hug and kiss, or so I thought. So I went to work, leaving early for a Dr appt. When I got home he was still sleeping, so I tip toed around the house just waiting to hear his feet hit the floor.. After standing staring at the door I decided to watch some TV, and then it was the sound I was waiting for,, I HEARD hey baby!! It was like falling in love all over again.. I felt like a school girl with her new found sweet heart. My heart was racing, I blushed, ahh it was him... So we went and laid in the bed, just cuddling. Then we decided to go hunting in the back in the new tree stand Michael and Jeremy built a while back. Its massive with 2 leather office chairs in it,, talk about hunting in style lol. It was such a great afternoon just spending time together. I think I may of convinced Michael that hunting with me has MUCH great benefits, lol.. If you catch my drift... So then Saturday the stubborn man had to work,, so I went to town with momma to do some Christmas shopping. We had plans to go to the light parade in Macclenny but by the time I got back from town it was just to late. =( Oh well, next year.. Sunday we got up and went to church,, then to the pig for lunch, then spent the rest of the day doing some cleaning around the house and outside.. Just busy work,, now it's Tuesday December the 9th,, and let me tell you,, it's soooo great having my husband back.. They are already talking about next year,, Yeah ok... Lol.. never again.. I hope everyone is have a great week,, the holidays are here and things are already getting busier and busier.. It is definitely beginning to look a lot like Christmas..


PS: I have some pics from this past week,, I will post them tonight.. =)

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Off to Mommys is where I went....

So last night, haha.. I am such a baby! I was soo set on staying alone, so I ordered pizza cuddled up and watched one of my favorite shows, PRIVILEGED. Around 10 I decided to lay in bed and try to sleep, the room was dark, quiet and it just wasnt happening.. I tossed and turned, so I jumped up, grabbed my backpack, packed some things and off to Mommy's I went! It was much more cozy, and the best of all I wasnt alone.. I woke up to some yummy yummy blue berry pancakes... Ooh la la,, they were great!! I went to the Dr yesterday, I have Laryngitis and major ear infections,, luckily I am out of the contagious stage, so I can mingle with friends.. =)

Have a great week guys..

(something for me to remember, in a email from my brother to my mom, 12/2/08: "Well just so you know, your son and daughter love each other very much. Brittany's honestly my best friend.")

This is my brother and Josiah wearing our cold clothes on Thanksgiving.

I miss you Josh!!!

Monday, December 1, 2008

Sick and Alone

So yesterday was definitely horrible... Not only was I sick ALL day long, I was alone while sick.. The worst, lol... I missed Michael more than ever last night, but he called me around 3 to talk, and to let me know just how much he was missing me, so I caught myself in tears once again. I am soo ready for him to be back,, and it's only Monday,, I have the rest of the week.. lol.. Anywho.. I am going to try and stay the night by myself again tonight,, but may not make it.. See,, I was sick last night and took some NyQuil to help me sleep, and yeah, I was having all kinds of hallucinations and crazy crazy dreams,, =).. So we will see how things go..

Love yall!!

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Seis Mas Dias

6 more days until I am reunited with my heart... So last night was okay, different but ok.. Carries company definitely helped me get through the night... I spoke with Michael a few minutes this morning and they were not quite there yet,, could you imagine, 24 hours strait of driving, no sleep, only stopping for bathroom breaks and food.. What determination a man has when it comes to hunting. I was lazy this morning, laying around with Dixie while carrie caught up on her beauty sleep. Then I went to my moms and we decorated her christmas tree, then she came to my house with me and we decorated my tree.. It's so perfect,, I love it... I wasnt going to do a tree but with Michael being gone, I wanted to take the extra time and put one together. I am so glad I did though.. Then we watched sisterhood of the traveling pants number 2,, a tradition of ours.. I am still sick, and starting to feel worse and worse as the hours go by!! Nite nite!!

Only crazy people

go shopping on black friday, and this year I decided to join in. Michael was up and at it very early this morning, around 5 am, rushing around the house preparing for his journey with the guys. As I quietly climbed out of bed, I felt my heart beginning to ache, I new this was the day, I felt sick to my stomach but I was going to be strong, STRONG for him since I knew he already had doubts about leaving me. I kissed him, and gave him the huge hug saying, I love you baby, come back home to me, I'll be waiting for you. =) Last night we did our nightly devotional and what a great story it was, about a couple to made it their goal to never leave each others sight without knowing they loved each other. One morning on the wifes birthday the husband left her a note saying how much he loved and appreciated her, as he slipped out the door to head to work, trying not to wake her, she heard the sound of this car crank up, so she threw on her house coat, rushing out the door and caught his attention, signaling for him to wait, he rolled down the car window and she leaned in saying i love you, with a big kiss, and he smiled and told her the same. That day her husband, her love, was taken from her, his life was claimed in a car accident on the way home from work. She was asked years later how she was doing, and how shes survived the loss of her husband and she said, our last words to each other was, I LOVE YOU. It was such a reminder of how you may not ever see that person again, and to make sure you cherish every moment spend with one another. It made me really respect my husband, and I knew last night this week wouldnt be easy for me. So after watching my hubby pull out of the drive, I felt the tears streaming down my face, but I knew it would be ok. I got a shower, threw on some clothes, and rushed to callahan to meet my aunt and uncle at the Hardees for some grub. After breakfast we headed out for a day full of shopping. We hit up, hobby lobby, the regency mall, the avenues, the town center, river city, and last but not least walmart.. But we got some great deals and had tons of fun.. It was nice spending the day with my aunt and uncle. Carrie and Dixie came over that night to stay with me and keep me company, we had tons of girl talk and i enjoyed playing with baby dixie....

7 more days!! =(

Friday, November 28, 2008

Thanks + Giving= Great Food =)

So,, today was Thanksgiving day. We all look forward to this day year after year, but this day was quite different for me this year. Instead of anticipating all of the yummy food that would be ate, I was dreading the day that would follow this event. Michael was leaving bright and early to head to Kansas for his hunting adventure.. Now I know this may sound crazy, and childish, but when you have been living with your husband for 3 years, going on 4, and you have never EVER spent one night away from each other, the next 7 days are going to be quite tough. ;) Unfortunately I was extremely sick on Thanksgiving day, because yesterday, I went to the ear specialist, and had to have a tube out in.. No fun.. Yucky Ears!! So my day consisted of sleeping in, cleaning up around the house, Going to Mrs. Jenetta's for lunch (michaels mom) coming home, taking a nap with my sweet heart, then going to my dads for dinner. We then came home and cherished the last moments we would be spending together. What a special night it was. It made me realize just how much I was going to miss this man, and how much I appreciated everything about him. Off to bed now,, time to go love on my hubby before he leaves..


Monday, November 24, 2008

Facing the Giants

God works in mysterious ways, we all know that, but do we truly believe that. As you have read my struggles and concerns you know where I currently stand with the baby process. Of course those desires have not disappeared, I still feel them everyday, every time I get lost staring at another child, every time I see my husband play with a friends child, every time I am asked, When are yall going to have kids.. It never leaves, but with God's comfort and his hand upon me, the last 2 weeks has been far easier than the last 1 year of trying. I have felt 100% at ease and comforted with God's decision and the direction he is leading my life. As I was strolling through Movie Gallery the other day, I decided to grab this movie, titles Facing the Giants, little did I know it's meaning, and the impact it would have on my life. Facing the Giants is a outstanding, Christian Based film that entails all of life's struggles and is based on a high school football coach who is having problems with his job and family. Him and his wife have been trying to get pregnant for several years with no success, and his job is going downhill. If you have never seen this movie, I suggest you wrap up with a blanket and dedicate a night to it. It is truly one of the greatest movies I have ever seen, it may have touched me more with the synopsis, but it's great. There was one part which was very memorable to me, it was a statement said by a character in the movie, he said, "I heard of a story of two farmers praying to God for rain to come. Both prayed but only one prepared the land. Who do you think trusted God more to send the rain?" It made me think to myself, am I truly preparing my land, is my womb ready for God's rain? After watching the movie Saturday night and spending some serious time in prayer, I felt even more at peace. Michael and I also started making doing a daily devotional at night, its called night light, it's a short devotion every night before bed, about God and Marriage, and how to include love in the mist of everything else life throws at us. I am excited to see what our future hold's by taking the extra 5 minutes at night to spend time together in god's word with each other. With all of the exciting things going on in life right now, I got a unexpected call tonight from my Daddy. OUt on his weekly visitation he came across a couple who has journeyed down the road that I am currently on as far as infertility goes, after speaking with them, and praying for them, and even leading her husband to the lord, she said she has left over follistim, which I CAN HAVE. Do you realize what this mean, depending on how much she has, I can proceed with my ovulation induction for hardly nothing. What a blessing, I will keep you updated once I find out exactly what how much of what she has. Anyways, remember when you are facing your own giants that God does listen, give him your struggles and he will solve them for you. We spend so much time and despair trying to fix things alone, when we have God to help.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Spending time with Daddy

Good Morning. Let me first say I woke up to the smell of fresh cooked eggs. Oh, I how miss the days of waking up to my Daddy's cooking. I would give almost anything to go back in time (taking Michael of course) and enjoy every minute with my Mommy and Daddy instead of running the roads as an avid teenager. I am 22, and I abruptly realized that last night while sitting at the dinner table. My Dad's wife, Mrs. Sarah is the proud parent of a 16 year old daughter, Miss Maise Danielle Martin, who is beginning to show the deleterious ways of a teen. Last night when I arrived to my dad's miss maise was in a fit because she wanted to go out, of course it was a Friday night, the night air had rise while the sunny sun lowed leaving nothing but, driving in the dark, behind the wheel of the car on maise's mind. Who would of though I was ever that way, not that there is anything wrong with it, I guess every teenager must go through that stage of thinking that the parents are the worst thing that ever happened, but it was a rude awakening to the fact that I am 22 years old. You know that ole saying,, you'll see one day, when you have a kid of your own. What was I thinking, lol, I am terrified of that day, I already see. So many times I feel ashamed for the choices I made, the mistakes I indulged in, the sins I have committed, but I have to remind myself that, all of the wrongs is what made me right today. Needless to say, i dread the day that my 16 year old child looks at me with the disgust in the eyes, that I looked at my parents with. Mom and Dad, I am truly sorry for every heartache I have ever caused you, I hope you know that if i could go back and change the world, I would spend every minute of my time with you. I love yall both with every part of me. Last night was a great night, and some much needed time spent with my Daddy. Now, what most of you don't know, is I see my daddy every single day for 8 hours straight, we work together, and I should appreciate that more than I do. You get caught up in your job and focused on what you should be doing, what I am getting paid to do, and I sometimes don't show the affection to my father that I should. This is another challenge I am introducing to myself. It is going to be my goal to every day of the week, stop in all of the hustle and bustle, take a glance at that sweet man, and let him know just how much I love him. You might say it's easy, no big deal, but when you work with your parent it make's your relationship harder, because you begin to look at them as another employee, and not as the parent they really are. So from this day forward, I promise to myself, to respect, honor, and love the father that God has blessed me with. Not every girl or boy is as lucky as me, many children are left in this world without the love of a parent, and I have 2, 2 parents I tell you, that love and adore me,, So it's time to show them the respect they both deserve. It's long overdue that I let my parents know THEY ARE LOVED. With that said, I am going to get off here, and go spend some more time with my daddy, while I have that opportunity.

I'm out, have a great weekend guys!!

Luv yall,

Caring and Compassionate,
Brittany =)


Oldies, but they are always the best right?
I miss those days!!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Family Time

Well, this week has been a pretty good week, and I am in much need of some R & R tonight. Michael is leaving the day after Thanksgiving to go hunting in Kansas, which I am pretty sad about still, since this will be the first time since dating that hes went away. In the past 3 years we have spent one night away from each other, and i could hardly stand it, so 5 nights is going to be very hard for me. I know I will make it though, I keep asking him if he is sure he wants to leave me, *wink wink*, but I get the definite Yes answer every time.. Man, oh man, what am I going to do a whole week without my husband.. lol.. The brighter side to the sad gloomy picture is, I will get to catch up with some of the people I often leave neglected.. I plan on spacing my time out and making sure to catch up with my girls.. I already have a full packed schedule,, I am hanging with Alicia one night, Carrie one night, Mommy one night, Heather one night, and then we will see what my future holds... haha! On another note, I am extremely cheerful and happy today, which is something I have not been in a while. Of course im not unhappy everyday of my life, but inner happiness is something I tend to lack. Astonishingly, the baby issue hasn't really been on my mind lately! I normally would think about it often, or even cry, I am have been tear free for a week now, except for happy tears during Zanes arrival. I beginning to be okay with the fact that this hasn't happened.. Don't get me wrong, I still want it more than ever but I am learning that patience is the key... Normally, when I would find out another friend is prego, I would get upset, and envy them, but now, i am Happy for them.. Anyways, tonight will be fun, I am going to my Daddys to stay the night and spend time together, and best of yet my hubby is going..

Have a good day everyone!! =)

Happy and Loved,

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The sweetest sound...

Well, today was in fact one of the most anticipated, nerve wrecking days of my life.. =) I am normally not the anxious type of person but today was a different story.. As most of you know, i have been patiently waiting for the arrival of my best friend Jaime's child over the last few months... Well today was the scheduled c section date. Let me go back and start with the eve of Zane's arrival.

Tuesday November 18, 2008

After work, I went by Winn Dixie to gather a few items, so I could then go home and prepare a spectacular dinner for Dean and Jaime. I wanted to be a good friend, and try to ease a little more stress off of Jaime's shoulders. I just knew that if I was going in to have a child, i would probably not feel like cooking dinner the night before. I made a few of Jaime and Dean's favorites, our meal consisted of homemade chicken and dumplings, chicken and rice, mac and cheese, cheese cake topped with delicious cherries. Man was is good.. After dinner, I painted Jaime's nails, so her hands would look perfect in pictures with little man, and then was sat around and relaxed while watching some TV. Just passing time with good friends.

Wednesday November 19, 2008

Beep, Beep, Beep, is what I woke up to at 3:15 this morning, it was time to get up.. As much as my body didn't agree with that theory I still sluggishly jumped out of bed and hit the shower. What a cold awakening, =). After I got out of the shower Jaime called to check and see if I was up, and assured me once again, that today was the day.. (she has been on the countdown) I got ready, and we headed out, arriving @ st. Vincents hospital at 5 am, we headed to the 4Th floor. When Jaime, Dean and I arrived they made me aware that I would have to wait in the waiting room until further notified, what a bummer. So that is where is sat for the next 55 minutes until Candy and her grandmother arrived. After we sat their patiently with grumbling bellies, we decide to go grab a bite from the hospital cafe. When we got back to the waiting room Mr. Townsend (Jaime's Daddy) was walking out from seeing the happy couple. She had her iv's and everything done and they were taking her back to the operating room. So it was about 7:05 and every single minute until 8:09 when I seen Dean coming went as slow as they possibly could. Every time I would hear a door open, or the voice of a man, I would jump up, camera in hand saying there he is. I just couldn't wait, for once the anticipation was getting to me. So around 8, I just couldn't take it anymore, so i hopped up and ran to the door that dean would be exiting with Baby Zane in hand, and peeked through small cracks of the paper covered window hoping to catch a glance of what I had been waiting the last 9 months for. No Dean, no Zane is all I seen, but I kept looking, and then as my eyes swelled with tears I seen him. I started jumping up and down letting everyone know he was coming, I was so excited I could hardly stand it. I had the biggest rush of over whelming joy come over me, I was sooo extremely happy for my friend. Everything she wanted, was finally here. Jaime has been blessed with a wonderful husband, but the past year hadn't been so great. Everyone needs a pick me up, and I truly believe holding that baby boy was hers. So, we all followed Dean to the nursery to watch Baby Z be checked. They checked all 10 of his little fingers, all 10 of his little toes, and went over every aspect of his adorable little body to make sure everything was just how it was supposed to be.

After standing there and taking a million and one pictures of Mr. Zane it was time for Daddy to take his new found love to meet Mommy. We were told once again to wait in the waiting room, but i just wanted to see Jaime.. So after about 15 long minutes I heard the golden ticket over the intercom, The bare family can now come in, Yay,, I was soo happy, so of course me being the emotional person I am, started crying again, and ran down the hallway as fast as i could to get to her.

When I walked in the room, my joy overwhelmed me once again, and i walked to her bed to give her a hug,, it was the sweetest thing i had seen in a long long time, A beautiful mother holding her precious little boy. The look on her face was so sweet, and she was glowing. We all visited with Jaime and Dean, and as everyone left, Dean went to take Baby Bare back to the nursery to visit with the pediatrician for all of his shots and what not. I helped Jaime get into her new room and we spent the rest of the day realizing and spending time together, it was just Me, Jamie, Dean and little man. I held baby Z for about 45 minutes while he caught up on some of his interrupted snoozing time. It was such a great day, and a memory that will last a lifetime. I will never forget that sweet little cry of his I heard for the first time. There is no sweeter sound than the sound of a new born babies cry.

He arrived to this world at 7:41 AM on November the 19, 2008 weighing 8 lbs and 1 oz measuring 20 1/2 inches long with an adorable bald hear bearing a slight amount of reddish blond peach fuzz... =)

I wish the Bare Family the best of luck, and hope to be involved in a million more of little Zane's days on this earth. Thank your for letting me be there with y'all and share that special day with you...

I love y'all..

Aunt Britt Britt =)

Video,, Compliments of the great Aunt Candy!! =)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

“Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)

So Sunday Michael and I got up and went to church. Must I say the sermon was amazing, and it really felt as if the preacher was talking to me. Don't you just love when you receive such a blessing. Most of you that read my blog know whats been going on in my life lately, and how it's been a struggle to follow GOD, and live within his will for my life. Well guess what the sermon was about, “Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). It was about being quite and listening to what God is trying to tell you.

If you have never heard the story of Joshua and the Walls of Jericho, be sure to read it, Its in the Book of Joshua, Chapter 15 and 16... Just google, Joshua and the walls of Jericho and you can read all about it... It was a great story of no matter how crazy it may sound God's way is the right way.


After Church Dean got the great Idea of going wake boarding in the freezing cold water.. So here are some pics of that.. =)

Tomorrow is the day for Mr. Zane.. I know i keep mentioning this, but i am overly excited.. =)